Confusion

[jakncoke]

So my grandmother died, so I cry a little bit and generally feel sad right now. But why? She didn't like me, she smoked a lot and drank even more so living to 63ish is like a gift. We never were close because as soon as I came of age to realize I didn't matter in her life I pretty much separated myself cept a few events a year aka Christmas Eve/the 4th. I don't why, but I feel like I should be indifferent to the situation as she was not well the last time I seen her aka Christmas Eve yet I am I still sad. Maybe because I will know I won't get to taste her good food or ultra delicious cookies on christmas eve ever again. I am at a lost of words and generally confused by the conundrum

[Cervantes]

Well as people everyone gets upset at others death in some way, could be family/friend or just the fact they are reminded they will die. That would explain why you where getting upset on someone you claim not to care much about. Maybe its just you wishing you could have changed that?

Who knows.....either way sorry for your loss and hope ya get through it.

[LiNuX]

sorry to hear about your grandmother - no matter how far off someone may seem from you, family is family and they are to be missed one way or another. Feeling sad about a death just means you are human, I've felt it plenty of times in my life, not a good feeling at all. Hope the rest of your family is handling things well.

RIP

[jakncoke]

sorry to hear about your grandmother - no matter how far off someone may seem from you, family is family and they are to be missed one way or another. Feeling sad about a death just means you are human, I've felt it plenty of times in my life, not a good feeling at all. Hope the rest of your family is handling things well.

RIP


I guess, I don't think I'm going to the funeral though. My dad offered to drive down here and pick me up, but I just don't think I was close enough to her to attend. Maybe I'll regret it down the road maybe not, nothing will kill me more than when my great aunt died. my cousin just graduated and we were at his graduation party, my dad decided to visit so he says we had a choice, hell we were young and we didn't exactly know her so we passed. later that night we drive home we start talking and my dad said she really wished we had come, the next day she died. I guess she knew she was going soon and just wanted to see us one last time, I don't think that will ever leave my top 3 regrets in my lifetime, I'm quite shocked I forgot when I made my regrets thread a couple months back, maybe that was a good thing I forgot because ate my alive for the longest time.

[LiNuX]

I guess, I don't think I'm going to the funeral though. My dad offered to drive down here and pick me up, but I just don't think I was close enough to her to attend. Maybe I'll regret it down the road maybe not, nothing will kill me more than when my great aunt died. my cousin just graduated and we were at his graduation party, my dad decided to visit so he says we had a choice, hell we were young and we didn't exactly know her so we passed. later that night we drive home we start talking and my dad said she really wished we had come, the next day she died. I guess she knew she was going soon and just wanted to see us one last time, I don't think that will ever leave my top 3 regrets in my lifetime, I'm quite shocked I forgot when I made my regrets thread a couple months back, maybe that was a good thing I forgot because ate my alive for the longest time.

ah - don't blame yourself for not going, you had no way of knowing the future. also don't let it eat at you, that'll cause even more emotional pain than you'd want to feel since you said, you kinda of parted off from her.

[jakncoke]

I guess, I wonder if my grandfather is okay. Just caught wind of a rumor that my grandfather has gone missing since finding her dead this morning.

[LiNuX]

I guess, I wonder if my grandfather is okay. Just caught wind of a rumor that my grandfather has gone missing since finding her dead this morning.

wow, I hope he's alright. must have been devastated but I do hope he's alright.

[EpsilonX]

even if it was a family member i didn't like, i still would probably attend the funeral. pay respects and such. i'm sure it would mean a lot to the rest of your family too. but that's just me.

sorry to hear about this, deaths always make me sad

[souljaa]

Like Linux said, family is family..I guess you just feel that little bit you had with her is gone now, and even though you say you we're never really close to her, I guess now that she's gone you realise you're never going to see her again. I guess you somehow felt she was always a little bit part of you? It's normal to be sad, no matter how you were with them. It happens. And as for your aunt, don't blame yourself at all, everything always happens for a reason..I'm sure she doesn't want you blaming yourself even today.
Deaths are always a hard thing to get through.
I'm very sorry for your loss, you will get through it though :).
RIP.

[jakncoke]

I just thought of something that's sad for my great grandmother who's like 93. This is now her 3 child to die before she has, all died from alcoholism. IIRC she only had 3, so all 3 died because they couldn't drink in moderation. how sad.

[souljaa]

I just thought of something that's sad for my great grandmother who's like 93. This is now her 3 child to die before she has, all died from alcoholism. IIRC she only had 3, so all 3 died because they couldn't drink in moderation. how sad.

Ah, that is sad. Very sad to see your own children pass away. Hope she will get through this tough time.

[jakncoke]

I think she will, but only because she has severe Alzheimer's

[Jaykub]

Aww Jak.

sorry to here that. I'm very sorry. I you will get over it and she is in a better place.